It's me shimei.
This is my first english blog post after using english for so long.
That's true I'm currently soaking in a english speaking society that even make me not use to chinese anymore.
But still I won't ditch my mother language no matter what.
Without you, there is no shimei who is writing this post now.
Well, maybe it is not a big deal.
But guess what?
I got rose for the first time.
What does it means that I am getting rose for the first time in 20 years?
Is there a meaning?
Is it a dessert before life leading to lost and hell?
Well, I am not sure about it.
But, I am willing to take the challenge.
So i have been using whisper for a long time.
I met Nick through there, the one i once dedicate myself to but it is no more right now.
And then I meet a lot of guys, including this guy from Goa call Sxxu.
I have been his crush since our first chat.
I never know he is serious or maybe he is not.
My trust issue is really an issue.
I never believe any words from people.
I questioned I don't believe that.
So we went out for the first time.
He got me rose and an envelope.
I was so surprised.
But I did not want to receive it.
I don't want to take anything for granted.
I don't want to take stuff from someone without giving out anything.
I refused for the first few times.
In the end, he kinda threatened me.
He was like ' if you don't take it I'll leave it here no matter what'
Of course I have to take it.
What if he really did leave the flower and the envelope over there?
And this is how I got this.
For the first time in my life,
I have receive flowers
I receive chocholates that was put inside an envelope surrounding with warm messages.
Maybe you guys were like why is this girl making a big deal about it?
It was just a freaking flower and chocolate.
But this was the first time.
The first time of my life.
Am I happy?
Well obviously I am.
It's like more to astonished to happy.
I guess my life came a little bit late.
But still thank god for letting me experience it.